She's a Smart Cookie

The girls are playing downstairs with a babysitter and I'm working in the office.
They are playing hide-and-go-seek.
It's finally Raya's turn to count.
"How long do I count for?" she asks
"um, how about you count to 10 two times" (seems reasonable for a 4 year old, I was impressed that the sitter modified it for her since Hallie had been counting to 40)

with disgust Raya replies
"NOOOO, because I can count to 20 you know!!!"

cute moment.

This morning as Raya holds a banana she looks up with her big HUGE eyes and says
"do you what this is in french?"
"no, hunny, what is it?"
"It's called a BANANA!"
she looks down at the banana and gets a puzzled look on her face
"oh, maybe actually, I think that's english"

and now we WAIT...

Yesterday morning I woke up before the alarm. Numerous times actually. I didn't know what the day would turn out to be like and I admit, I was nervous. Raya was excited though. I woke her up and told her it was time to go the Dr. She loved that she could wear her pajamas!!

Everyone was so nice at the hospital. She received more attention than she could handle...almost! We were moved from one waiting area to another and then to another... Different staff popped in to each area to ask different questions and to have different forms signed. Before I knew it I was laying her down on a little white bed and she was staring up at 4 complete strangers. :( The fear in her eyes was almost more than I could handle. She squeezed my hand with her little fingers and I rubbed her head. The anesthetist put a mask on her face and her eyes were locked on mine. Her eyelids got heavy and I leaned in to kiss her cheek. I prayed in her ear as her breathing got heavy and her arms and legs began to move around. The nurse told me I had to go. The anesthetist said "just let mom give her one more kiss" and I did. I said one more prayer in her ear, wiped my tears and left the room.

SO HARD.

I went to the bathroom and sang
God in her living
There in her breathing
God in her waking
God in her sleeping
God in her resting
There in her working
God in her thinking
God in her speaking
BE HER EVERYTHING
God in her hoping
There in her dreaming
God in her watching
God in her waiting
God in her laughing
There in her weaping
God in her hurting
God in her healing
BE HER EVERYTHING

I'm so thankful for His promise to us that He will never leave us. I was worried about her, but I didn't need to be. Her creator was right there with her...does it get any better than that? GOD was with her....and He was with me too.


After arriving back home we had a difficult day. Raya did sleep and just as they had told me she was grumpy and 'drunklike' for most of the day. Today wasn't much better so I'm hoping that putting her to bed tonight shortly after 6 will place a positive spin on tomorrow.

I've been asked a few times "How long until you know something?"
I'm supposed to call in two weeks to make an appointment. I'll probably wait until after Christmas. I don't really need to know anything before now and the new year. I don't really want her results tied to Christmas in any way. This is a time to celebrate the birth of Christ!