Worship

I've been spending alot of time 'worshipping' lately...on my own. I look up my friends blogs and most of us have music attached and I can't help but start to sing and eventually, I'm not even reading anymore...I'm in my office, with the door closed, fully worshipping the God I serve, my creator, defender, comfortor...my everlasting Father....no one else.

I struggle at church and often wish everyone was seperated into cubicles...imagine this....curtains going lenthwise and widthwise so each person would have their own little space. :) I know that people aren't really 'watching' each other but I often find myself wanting to 'let-go' when I'm worshipping... I want to raise my hands, or dance, or smile, or kneel, or weep...and it's hard for me to fully worship in a room full of people. It's intimate....between Christ and I....and I don't want to share it with others....much the same as I wouldn't want to be in a room full of people when Chris and I having our most intimate moments (whether it be conversation, holding, or anything else).

It's not uncommon for me to have my worship music cranked in the van and to be crying or singing my heart out...I love it!! I wish I had the same freedom at church on a Sunday morning without feeling so inhibitated.